This is abit outdated due to work commitments, outings and trips but I still I want to post this.
Been feeling really down and crappy the pass one week, pretty much almost nothing or anyone would have been able to make me feel any better. My mind was flooded with a lot of things and I wasn't able to get them out of my head.
One night I fell asleep and had a dream. Before falling asleep, I did not see, hear or even remotely think of what I was about to see in my dream. I dreamt of a lovebird, looking exactly identical to Diamond, however while dreaming, I picked up the lovebird cos it was lost.
I held the little fellow in my palms, exactly the way I would have held Diamond, cupping my hands over to provide warmth. It seemed hungry so I gave it some food which it took but didn't ingest, all the while looking at me, never making a sound.
Since I found the bird, I thought I'd let it go after caring for it, so I let it out the window and it flew one floor above my apartment. Just as I thought it was about to leave, it flew back right into my hands. I held it for a tad longer and this time, I pushed it outwards, trying to make it fly further. The little fellow flew out far this time and just as it was about to go out of sight, it started to fly back, again into my hands.
I didn't know what to do, so I placed it in a cage and gave it more food and water. It just kept quiet and looked at me all the time and this is where I woke up. Every bit of the dream I just had, I was able to recall precisely what happened, something which I seldom was able to do.
Laying in bed, it suddenly hit me, the feel about it all, just reminded me strongly about Diamond. It was how she would always try to cheer me up when I was sad. How she would coo and lay in my hands as I carried her out of her cage. How she would have gotten up, ran around, chirp and sing when she was critically ill just so I wouldn't worry about her.
I just felt like she was trying to cheer me up again, in her own way. Got to say it made me feel better after the dream. Its almost a year now with her death anniversary coming up on 2nd Jan 09. Still feels like yesterday.... and not forgotten.... rainbow bridge they say, until then, I will remember the lessons I learnt from her.
